Grief came in the night and curled up on my chest
I woke to it staring me in the face
Placid, implaccable but somehow menacing.
As I stared into those yellow, unblinking eyes, it’s tail began to lash.
I grabbed it with firm hands,
Craning my neck to avoid a counter attack
And sat up, slowly, expecting it to drop to the floor
instead I felt its claws.
Pin pricks became angry red lines raking downward hot and heavy.
It clung, ripping, tearing but never letting go
Pulling great wracking sobs out of me
Dragging at my heart through my ribcage
Sinking it’s teeth into delicate flesh.
I thought I would die.
Body tense, teeth clenched, hands fisting away tears.
I stretched beyond breaking,
torn asunder but somehow inescapably still here.
Every part of me pinned by claw or tooth
Laid out, throbbing
A dissection of human suffering.
I gave up.
Stopped pushing, stopped fighting, stopped trying to be free.
I laid each hand across my heart and wept.
Of their own volition, my hands found soft fur
Drew my fingers in long, languid strokes.
The pain ebbed,